I cried through Chapter 20.

I wonder if you ever think about me.
I still think about you.
That last night, I've never had someone leave and not come back.
I sent you away, And I was right.
But I didn't think it would be so easy for you.
It hurt me. So much.
I kept the tissues.
I kept the roses, though I gave them to someone else I love now.
You never wanted to see me again, Even though you pretended not to know.
You pretended to cry.
You had my things ready in a bag so you never had to come back.
Standing in the cold and the dark, we accidentally kissed goodbye.
Twice.
As I turned my back through the door, you called my name.
I turned around and you told me to keep smiling.
I shut the door, smiled at you, as if I would see you soon.
And as if nothing happened.
For that second we were unchanged whilst we still loved each other.
But you never loved me...
And guess what honey, I was deluded.
I never loved you either.