I can't bear to look at you, to talk to you, I hurt just being near you.
But the thought of getting over you hurts just as much.
I don't even want to write about it.
And whenever something this big hits me, I have to write.
I just can't.
I can't stop crying at stupid songs, I can't look at your photograph.
You've put such a hole in my heart and I almost hate you for it.
And at the same time, I want you so so so much.
It'd be so easy to lose myself to you.
For once I can't rely on you to pick me back up.
I can't get rid of this knot in my stomach and I can't get rid of this pain.
I'm sick of living with it, like its something I have to hide and pretend isn't there.
I can't be bothered with anything anymore.
I just want to give up on it all, it's not important.
Everything's a fail, if I fail this.